Dear Bloggie,

 

June seems to past really fast. That's cos I was away for 2 trips. Shall write about them so that I don't forget when I get old. :o)

 

Phuket Trip - 24th May 2009 - 26th May 2009

The Phuket Trip somehow started from a lunch chit chat with a group of colleagues in the cafeteria. Somehow the air tickets for Phuket was rather attractive and the trip was materialised. Soon after, tickets and hotel accomodation was booked and we were all pretty excited. Suddenly there was unrest in Thailand as well as Pattaya, which was near Phuket. I didn't want to cancel my trip but I was hoping that the unrest would soon die down. Some higher powers from high above must have heard me and soon there was somewhat peace in Thailand and off we go to Phuket, all 5 of us, 2 guys and 3 girls.

 

24th May 2009

We landed in Phuket International Airport and amazing someone was there to pick me up even though I have only paid for the airport transfer the night before. We reached our Hotel early in the morning but was really fortunate that they have rooms available for us to check in. And our rooms are connected. We had a lovely balcony, and a very beautiful open concept toilet with glass windows which of course you can close with curtain blinds. Oh how I wish I can import that concept into my future home! In short, the hotel was really luxurious and classy.

 

 

I am really glad we stayed in Patong Beach, because it is really lively and close to the Beach. The Hotel is connected to a Grand Shopping Mall, which is well, just like any shopping mall in Singapore.

 

Didn't really do much on the 1st day. Did some swimming and tanning and basically was just very relaxing.

 

25th May 2009

We did a day tour to James Bond island, which is really simply just a boring piece of rock. I didn't really find it amazing. However we did some canoeing through the mangrove swamps and around the arches and stacks. Some of the arches were so low that one had to lie down to allow the canoe to pass under the arch. Some of the arches lead to enclosed caves which are open to sky. The scenery is beautiful. It reminds me of the Halong Bay in Vietnam.

 

 

 

26th May 2009

It is actually our last day in Phuket. I really miss the beautiful hotel room. Before leaving for the airport, we went for a body massage along the streets. Price was cheap, around SGD$20 or so. It was so-so cos I didn't really like the mattress and the blanket as I dunno whether clean or not. Haha. And the rooms were separated by curtains and I could hear some guy in the room next door so clearly.

 

I have no regrets joining the trip as it was an eye opener and I really get to understand my colleagues better. Will I go back to Phuket again? I don't think so actually as I felt the place is filled with too many ang mos hanging out with local thai girls.

Me: "What's the date today?"

Him: 19 April

Me: You sure or not?

Him: Yah of course. (thinking to himself, of course la, dumbass, it is my birthday today leh)

 

I innocently forgot my dear's birthday! I have no idea why it slipped off my mind. Everyone, including his mum and old friends wished him happie birthday, except me. Prior to that date, I kept reminding myself of its significance. But when the actual day comes, I actually forgot!

 

And i only realised the day after, and a million belated wishes cannot replace the actual one on the actual day. And I have to live with this guilt and kena reminded for one year. :(

 

Happy birthday dear, everyday with you is a joyous occasion.

 

 

 

 

Dear Spacey,

It has been a long long time since I have updated my spacey.

 

Today the weather was exceptionally hot. Perhaps it was hot the whole week but probably didnt felt it cos i was working. Feels like 35 deg. The moment I stepped out of the shower, I am already sweating.

 

Went to check Yahoo Weather and it is gg to be hot hot hot for the next few days. :(

 

Tonight	Tomorrow	Tue	Wed	Thu	6-10 Day
Scattered T-storms	Scattered T-storms	Scattered T-storms	Scattered T-storms	Scattered T-storms	Extended Forecast
High: 31° Low: 25°	High: 32° Low: 26°	High: 33° Low: 26°	High: 33° Low: 26°	High: 33° Low: 26°

 

 

Today went down to the new DBSS Parc Lumiere in Simei to kaypoh kaypoh. Typical Singaporeans. Was quite surprised that despite the downturn, almost 70% were sold. Suprising thing is that they were supposed to launch on the 21st April, but due to overwhelming response they brought forward the date. There were still some top floor units left though as of Sunday afternoon, dunno about now. But its facing isnt fantastic. Liked the 4-room size cos it seemed big and spacious, though there was this uncle, who kept complaining everything is sooo small and the Nice Interior Design showcased is like "What you see is what you dont get". Haha...anyway my dear found out that my house is actually within 2 Km of Parc Lumiere. I didnt know I was THAT near simei. Anyways, I thought this walk in selection concept is really cool. You get what you what if you are willing to make the effort to queue early.

 

Was travelling along East Coast park service road today after dinner when I saw an obstacle ahead, and it turned out to be a motobike lying on the road, with some liqiudy stuff around the bike. Blood? But I didnt see any thing else beside it, or any other signs of smthg being knocked into. Did the bike just collaspe like that? Couldnt find any injured person lying around. Saw the police arrived a short while later. Means there is really someone injured wor. Wanted to drop by to take a look, but dearie doesnt like all the gore. So now, I am still curious what happened along east coast park road at 8 plus? Couldnt find any information in CNA as well. Now I am left with that strange curious feeling.

 

 

 

 

Last Wednesday I meet up with the Gals - Michelle and Mel for some chit chat and catching up. Had Sakae Sushi at Century Square. I can never get tired of eating Japanese Food, cos I really don't get to eat that often. Furthermore, there is a Salmon Promotion with 20% off Salmon dishes. Are Salmon fish in abundance now? Well, I can eat loads and loads of sashimi, especially when it is really fresh and smooth. Yummy, thinking about it makes me hungry.

 

So if you are longing for salmon too, do drop by Sakae Sushi before the end of March.

 

 

Dear Bloggie,

Well it has been some time since I was last here. Loved the new look of MSN spaces. 2009 has been a great start. Initially I wasnt really looking forward to it cos the arrival of 2009 is when my darling is going to leave this workplace. Reading his Last day Email always gives me a sad feeling, hence I have put away in my personal folder and choose not look at it. I do miss my butter chicken and naan saturday lunches, cos i dont think i can find another kaki with similiar food interests. Canteen food is fine too. We eat to live, not live to eat, so food is no big deal. Heard from him that his seat has already been replaced by another "old-newcomer". I totally didnt like it at all. That corner, that seat, that extension was special to me.  That table I always lookout for when it is time for lunch, that seat, where Eeyore used to sit on, now Eeyore have moved to join Beanie and Poohie...my 3 friends who accompany me to work and back home everyday. Lucky Lucky....

 

I really look forward to sundays, cos that's when I get a chance to meet up with my dear. So I will be lonely on my off days. But my dear has already got something to keep me busy on my off days, now I am so busy I have got time to get it started.

 

Had a movie date today with my dear today, at Causeway Pt!! Of all places! Well that was because Chandi Chowk to China dont really show at many places. Great comedy, good for a little laugh, and quite a refreshing idea of bringing Kungfu to bollywood movies. The lead female actress plays dual roles, herself as Sahki, an indian girl, as well as a Chinese girl named Meow Meow (of all names! chinese names dont sound like that!), which is actually her long lost twin, Suzy. Quite cute and stereotype, but great for laughs. But I still prefer romance movies, those that make girls cry and think about it again and again after the movie. :o) Looking forward to the next movie date!

 

This year, I will not be working on CNY! Yippie! Will be gg back to work on 3rd day of CNY. Love it! Can go pai nian except I havent got any new clothes! Bought a pair of killer heels today, "killer" in my sense cos I have been wearing flats for sooo long. But they make the legs look longer and gives people the illusion of slim legs. haha.

 

Something to look forward to next weekend!

 

 

Hi Bloggie,

It has been a long weekend of rest. Sunday – Wednesday. I cant really remember the last time I rested so long. But anyways it felt really great. Till tmr that is, cos that’s when work starts. L

 

Sunday I had dinner with my boss + colleagues at Yishun Safra, at Eatzi, kind courtesy of my boss. J The layout and food was pretty much like Jack’s place except that it is Halal. So frens, if you need to organize a get together meal at a Halal restaurant, Eatzi is the place to go! Didn’t order their famous steak as I have since steer clear of beef since a pretty long time I guess. After dinner, we had bowling at Safra. I think I bowled for like macham the first time in 2008? Haha. I cant really remember but it does seems like a long long time ago I last slot my fingers into those holes in the balls. Heh..

 

Then for Monday I spent time with my baby. So is tue and wed. Haha. I sound pretty obsessed. Cant wait to get married and live together. Then we wouldn’t have to go out so often. Save petrol + parking + no more parking fines. I think the fine aunties and uncles are getting more rampant. No carparks can be safe anymore. Haha. Think ulu East Coast Park is safe. No- no. I am satisfied with just eating at home, and watch teevee. Save money! :o) Of course I must learn to cook 1^st as the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. I already got his heart, but I bypassed the tummy, so I am now going back there. Which is my next new agenda, learn how to cook. This tummy has got very stringent standards, no soya sauce, yet must have real taste. So next time, instead of going to work, so I will be busy learning cooking on my off days. Any shifu out there wants to take me in as disciple?

 

4^th DBSS Natura Loft is coming up in Bishan this Friday, just in time for Oct, as promised by the developer. Maybe will go and kaypoh and see see, though the price is So Expensive and Nothing to See Actually. (=no fantastic view in Bishan Area) And the developer mentioned that “his firm has already revised the Bishan prices down due to the prevailing cautious sentiment. Its prices are competitive, considering Sim Lian's Clover By The Park condo in Bishan sold for about $750 psf” Lolz…must compare apple to apple what, how to compare DBSS prices to condo? Condo has got no 8K income ceiling, so there is no comparison in term of affordability.

 

And next week I am going to Bintan. Yays. The last month that my company is offering the Bintan Chalet as one of the employee benefits. And the lucky star goes to my dear, who managed to ballot for it. Looking forward to happy weekends. J

I am writing this post dedicated someone very Special in my life.

 

I know you probably wont be reading this, or probably nobody would be reading this, which is just as well.

 

You came into my life slightly more than a year ago and sweep me off my feet. You made me feel special.

 

You taught me to be positive, crush my negative thoughts and to turn a negative situation to a positive one.

 

You gave me courage and support. Without you, I would never pluck up the courage to learn to drive again. You believe in me, despite the many mistakes I made and the many flaws I have. You were patient with my temper and put with up my excessively kan cheong nature. You gave me the confidence, to do things I never thought i would have done.

 

you decided to make a switch in your career. I m very happy for you for you will certainly be happier. I know it is what you want and that's what keeps you going. though I m sacarstic on purpose. But deep down, there is a lesson for me to learn. I have to learn to be independant. I have to change. You have certainly made my working life very pleasant, which I cannot take for granted, as I cannot be by your side all the time. Like in the book "who moved my cheese", I could have anticipate the change and prepared myself for it. I need to be like Sniff, I cannot get too comfortable with what I have now and need to constantly look out. And I need to be like Haw, to change with changing situation.

 

I am very thankful to have met you. Thank you for believing in me and listening to me and for giving me so many wonderful memories in the past one yr.

 

love,

your little one.

 

 

 

 

 

It's 4 am in the morning and yet i m not sleepy. I had a wonderful night, robbing my dear from his sleep at 11 pm for supper. i enjoyed chatting with my dear, talking abt our future. I feel happy for the ways things are today, and i have not looked back ever since 1st Jan 2008, on which i have made a life changing decision, which after so long, i finally declare openly, that i have no regrets. I feel at ease now. A little lighter...

 

Attended my colleague's wedding dinner esterday evening. Weddings always warm my heart, to see happy couples tying the knot and sharing their joy with everyone. Somehow I wondered how would mine gonna be....I dont think i ll have the nerve to go through smthg so large scale, having all eyes on me, and i cant entertain such large group of people. So I guess it will be a really simple and private affair. Anyway, it is not anytime soon, so i shall not clutter my brain with such thoughts.

 

Just back from HK, have not really started work due to my tummyache. And i need to take leave this fri, cos i am going to make an important decision in life too. Just that i dunno how m i gg to ask for leave just after taking mc on sat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It is Auggie 12th. August has been a rather exciting month. Well Aug 1st has been my birthday. For the past week, caught up with my old gold frens, merina and frens and michie. Been really nice catching up with them. merina and frens gave mi a cute lil pinkie MP3 player, which i havent download any songs into it yet. Well today for the 1st time i use the FM radio function on the mrt. It has been quite some time since i travelled on the mrt. Was travelling to Orchard as I had a dinner with my colleagues in Carousel, in Royal Park on Scotts. Had a great discount cos one of my colleagues's mum works there. Wow. Which is great savings on my pocket as mi the old "newcomer" have to treat my colleagues to a nice hotel buffet dinner as a tradition. Which I dont think there will be anymore newcomer, so i m looking forward to promotion treats. :o)

 

I went shopping with mum to the harvey norman sale at expo last weekend and bought a plasma tv to replace the CRT tv which was spolit. I think I m the last person in the whole family that use the tv and I m paying for it. In fact, the TV being spolit didnt affect me at all. Haha. But i know if i dont buy this time she ll (nag and nag and nag and) * 1000. Haiz. Paid for the metro warehouse shopping as well. I feel broke and yet mummy keeps telling me i m not giving her a monthly allowance. :o( I have got committments to pay for monthly but she has none lor. Sigh. And how come my bro no need to contribute anything? 

 

Next mth i m intending to go on a holiday too, mb to hk. I would like to revisit there again cos i have nv been to the new airport and that i can go visit Shenzhen and macau together too. Since we have both been to hk before, the main highlight would be shopping! But if i were gg with my girlfrens, i think we would go crazy and so would my wallet. haha. Haven request for leave yet though. Dunno what is my mum reaction though. She would prob want me to bring her. But....i m going with my dear. ;o) will find one mth where my resources arent so drain and then i ll bring her for a weekend tour during my off days. Since now she has a little assistant a work, she will be free more often. :o)

 

Been rather happie these days. I have a little trip to look forward too. Seeing my dear so tense at work, I think this vacation would be much needed for us and for him to switch off his hp and remain uncontactable for that period, when we can truly relax....

 

 

I am still in happiness cos my birthday seem to last more than just a day. :o)

 

On the actual day, I didnt really do anything much as i had to work the whole shift. Supposed to go off early at 6pm(nice allowance for a birthday girl) but due to unforeseen circumstances, I had to stay till 9 plus. but that's fine coe my boss agreed to give me time off on saturday. :o) Going off early makes chewy a happie girl.

 

My boss dropped me a card on my table on my birthday, which means either he stayed up really late to pop the card at my desk on thurs night or he came really early to drop the card. Either ways, it really makes my day! Happie. :O)

 

had loads of birthday wishes from frens whom i thot have forgotten abt mi. I feel so touched!Many thanks my goodie frens, although i replied your smses rather late as i was not able to use HP at work. 

 

I had a nice dinner with my dear on sat evening, which was supposed to be 4/4 outing that evening, but to decide using my authorised time off to go out with 4/4 khakis (though i really miss them) or to have a nice dinner with my darling, the choice is clear. (oops ;o) )

 

We dropped by sembawang park, a very ulu ulu place, but what i like about the place is that the benches at directly at the edge of the coast, and we felt really close to the wafers. We watched the waves crash onto the coast as we munched on peanuts, and i think i m getting a sore throat already from the peanuts.

 

Had a lazy sunday afternoon, as half the time is spent zzing. Love weekends. My weekends are sundays and mondays. :o)

 

i think i m in real need of courage. I wanna take early time off on Friday, but i m so so afraid to ask. Haiz. i m waiting for the right opportunity. Sheesh. Tmr I must pluck up all my courage to ask my boss. Cos it is my birthday!!! Wahaha..i really dont wanna spent my birthday dining at work at XXXX cafeteria where the food s***. It is actually edible and fills the tummy, just not special.

 

I m going to be 24 soon. I m really excited cos i feel like i m entering another phase of my life. :o) Life has just began....

Finally, I m back to my bloggie. It has been a loong time since i last blogged cos it is back to peaceful and happie days.

 

Stuff to be happie abt.........

Things I m really to looking forward to.....

 

 

 

 

As mentioned in TITLE. thanks. how i love my life.

Hi Bloggie,

time really flies, it has been half a yr since i last talk to you. A lot of things has certainly changed. Myself, as well the pple ard me.

 

Work.

 

Smtimes i feel my workload is beyond my control. A lot of things i wished i had the time for. I only have 12 hours a day, and there is just so much i could do. I tried and tried each day, squeezed every possible minute, every one more min avail, i could have attend to one more issue, sent one more mail, called one more person, passed down one more information.

 

No matter how much harder I try, I received -ve feedback, this not done, that not done, missed out on this information, missed out on that abnormalty. I am really tired. I need a break.

 

I become emotional at the slightest provocation, perhaps as a means of escape, or as a means of protecting myself. I tried very hard to portray zero emotion on my face, but my zero emotion is an emotion, a sign of my unhappiness. I m unhappie, but i feel very trapped.

 

Work life balance

"I will be out in 10 mins." was probably my most overused and most fail-to-deliever statement. Why, becos i cant just leave yet, not that i love the place so much that i can bear to leave it to go for lunch. Having to skip meals, to me, is most demoralizing. The very basic entitlement to man's very basic need, and to take that away, is like a silent punishment. Many I know accepted it and lived with the thinking of work over self, but I simply cant, becos it is simply not rewarding. I cant help it that i fail to commit to my lunch timings with pple. Not many can accept that it is not within my control. Those who have tolerated me time and time again after i ve dissapoint u, failing to turn up for appointments,  i m really sorry.

 

My life is not within my control

 

 

my previous posts were sad and negative so today for a change, my post is going to be on smthg happie. Thanks my friends for your concern, i feel so touched and happie with so many nice pple ard mi. Even though you dont see mi, just acknowledging the fact that i dont feel like i m talkin to air makes mi feel better. Thanks for asking mi out to cheer mi up. but sadly cos i was trying to spend more time with baby, a neglected baby is a v.unhappie one. I really really need to find time to talk to you guys. i promise before next yr, i ll squeeze time out to meet up with u guys. :

 

I m feeling happier cos i decided to take a FULL one day break from work. Waking up at noon is just amazing. Then did some xmas shopping, but not yet finished. Retail therapy works wonds, just that the stuff arent for mi. But buying stuff for pple i really care just makes mi happy, just the thot of my frens receiving the present i took effort to handpick, and the 2nd part is of course wrapping it in wrappers of love, just the thot of it makes mi happie. :o) Haha..i m a lil nutty. except for the xmas gift i was supposed to buy for my office's xmas gift exchange, cos i have no idea who is gg to get my gift, and it might be smone i dont even know well, so i dont care lo, haha. Then baby took mi to a real nice indian restaurant for dinner cos i kept jumping for the past dunno how many mths i wanna eat indian food. haha. And i got my dose of my fav spinach with cottage cheese. Yummy. I think i can eat a huge bowl of that.

 

Watched enchanted today. Magical show. I think i have fallen for such fairy tale movies, like stardust, enchanted is also smthg really unreal, smthg happily ever after. 

I m working towards my happily ever after....:o)

 

Today baby just gave mi a cutesy baby tigger propping up on its shoulders. It is so untiggerably cute..i cannot take it. i m huggin it to zzzz.

 

Many reasons to be happie.

 

Once again, i found my old self.:o)

 

I feel like i m walking on tight rope everyday, sm mistake is just lurking at the corner, waiting to happen. I fell, i picked up, I fell again, picked up again...how many times does this has to repeat before i say....let mi sink.

 

Every single day of the shift this week, smthg is there to put me down. Why am i being tested and stretched such that i m emotionally weakened. I dont look forward to tmr anymore. At the end of the day i m always near to tears. i dont feel relieved of my burden, comforted for my fears.  

 

I need the strength.

 

I feel alone. Does anyone hear my cries?

I couldnt help feeling betrayed today. 4 person on MC. coincidentally all msg mi from 745 to 825am to take MC. My first thought was honestly like macham food poisoning, cos we all ate at the same restaurant ytd, 4 out of the 8 of us are on mc. I felt really guilty, initially.

 

As much as i choose to believe otherwise, as much as i wanna give the benefit of the doubt, as much as i wanna trust u guys cos you are my most excellent pple. I tried. I seriously tried.  

 

I felt my trust in you guys were broken.

 

I feel how my boss were to feel if i were to leave.

 

Feelings of guilt. And betrayal.

 

May tmr be a better day.

 

My gain today: touched by the support of my boss shown today.

 

My loss: trust

 

Move on, chewy

 

i do not have the courage to do what i want.

 

Why is it so hard for me to say the simplest things.

 

I m complex.confused too.

 

 

plucked off miao's bloggie..

 

“Girls having boyfriends are like having goalkeepers. It does not mean that with a goalkeeper there u cannot score”

sets mi thinking.....