my previous posts were sad and negative so today for a change, my post is going to be on smthg happie. Thanks my friends for your concern, i feel so touched and happie with so many nice pple ard mi. Even though you dont see mi, just acknowledging the fact that i dont feel like i m talkin to air makes mi feel better. Thanks for asking mi out to cheer mi up. but sadly cos i was trying to spend more time with baby, a neglected baby is a v.unhappie one. I really really need to find time to talk to you guys. i promise before next yr, i ll squeeze time out to meet up with u guys. :

 

I m feeling happier cos i decided to take a FULL one day break from work. Waking up at noon is just amazing. Then did some xmas shopping, but not yet finished. Retail therapy works wonds, just that the stuff arent for mi. But buying stuff for pple i really care just makes mi happy, just the thot of my frens receiving the present i took effort to handpick, and the 2nd part is of course wrapping it in wrappers of love, just the thot of it makes mi happie. :o) Haha..i m a lil nutty. except for the xmas gift i was supposed to buy for my office's xmas gift exchange, cos i have no idea who is gg to get my gift, and it might be smone i dont even know well, so i dont care lo, haha. Then baby took mi to a real nice indian restaurant for dinner cos i kept jumping for the past dunno how many mths i wanna eat indian food. haha. And i got my dose of my fav spinach with cottage cheese. Yummy. I think i can eat a huge bowl of that.

 

Watched enchanted today. Magical show. I think i have fallen for such fairy tale movies, like stardust, enchanted is also smthg really unreal, smthg happily ever after. 

I m working towards my happily ever after....:o)

 

Today baby just gave mi a cutesy baby tigger propping up on its shoulders. It is so untiggerably cute..i cannot take it. i m huggin it to zzzz.

 

Many reasons to be happie.

 

Once again, i found my old self.:o)

 

I feel like i m walking on tight rope everyday, sm mistake is just lurking at the corner, waiting to happen. I fell, i picked up, I fell again, picked up again...how many times does this has to repeat before i say....let mi sink.

 

Every single day of the shift this week, smthg is there to put me down. Why am i being tested and stretched such that i m emotionally weakened. I dont look forward to tmr anymore. At the end of the day i m always near to tears. i dont feel relieved of my burden, comforted for my fears.  

 

I need the strength.

 

I feel alone. Does anyone hear my cries?

I couldnt help feeling betrayed today. 4 person on MC. coincidentally all msg mi from 745 to 825am to take MC. My first thought was honestly like macham food poisoning, cos we all ate at the same restaurant ytd, 4 out of the 8 of us are on mc. I felt really guilty, initially.

 

As much as i choose to believe otherwise, as much as i wanna give the benefit of the doubt, as much as i wanna trust u guys cos you are my most excellent pple. I tried. I seriously tried.  

 

I felt my trust in you guys were broken.

 

I feel how my boss were to feel if i were to leave.

 

Feelings of guilt. And betrayal.

 

May tmr be a better day.

 

My gain today: touched by the support of my boss shown today.

 

My loss: trust

 

Move on, chewy

 

i do not have the courage to do what i want.

 

Why is it so hard for me to say the simplest things.

 

I m complex.confused too.

 

 

plucked off miao's bloggie..

 

“Girls having boyfriends are like having goalkeepers. It does not mean that with a goalkeeper there u cannot score”

sets mi thinking.....